Current mood:	Im on STEROIDS
Current music:	Depeche Mode- "Shake the Disease"

Understand Me
Here is a plea
From my heart to you
Nobody knows me as well as you do
You know how hard it is for me
To shake the disease
that takes hold of my tounge in situations like these

Understand me
Understand me
- Depeche Mode


Ive said it a whole damn lot, but it never seems to be enough (and before I go on an understanding should be reached. Never enough to do justice to how I feel, not never enough to please some one else.) I love her. People can say and think whateverthefuck they'd like to. It won't slow me down or damper my feelings at all.

I just wish she could see herself the way I see her. Infuriating at times. So wonderful on so many levels. I'd do anything for her. Normally Im a pretty self centered person. On most occasions I wouldnt really bother to reassure anyone else, no matter how close I was to them (immediate family excluded). With her, however, I only want her to know how crazy I am about her and how wonderful she really is. Not for me, but for her.

Okay.. I didnt get to see her today and I can't stop thinking about her.. Trying to get focused.

2:30 AM...

Went camping this passed weekend. The first time Ive actually gone on vacation with some one who wasn't Mike or family..(Oh wait.. Mike did go... Fuck.) Having her with me made it a totally different experience than Im used to. I enjoyed it thoroughly. Natalie is pretty much the only thing that keeps me going right now (That and the desire to get a 69 GTO). We went floating down a river. Call it tubing or canoing, we just cut out the middle man. For some of us it was more a fight against the current than a relaxing trip though. Lots of beer, and little food or water. We werent very prepared, but we made up for it.

7 is the number to beat.

Gotta get up for work in about 7 hours so I may as well get some sleep. I wanna call, but I know no one will answer.. May as well try.